ROBBY: You know, I had this strong impression at certain points in the video about certain moving towards the future as well. I think when there was this shot of different pairs of shoes walking, it always makes me think of kind of shoes are from the past, but they’re going to the future in a way. Has this experience, whether it’s making the video or just the time itself, has any of this changed the way that you’re thinking about the future?
LULU: I think while making the video, it kind of like corresponded with a time where I was thinking about my future direction a lot. And so actually like being sent home from MIT kind of put me in a different headspace, which I think was useful in a lot of ways, to kind of be separated from the distractions of like– not distractions but just be in a different environment from the school and like really think about what matters to me and what I want to do going forward.
And that’s not to say that I figured it out. Because I don’t think I have. But I think having the space to explore that through doing something more creative was really beneficial to me, and also to just kind of get to try out this idea of film and documentary, which is something that I’ve always been interested in but like not really known about I think was really useful to see– at least I could think about how am I approaching this. Like what are the things I have to offer when I’m making stories. And how could I continue to do this kind of thing.
So that was kind of useful, with respect to exploring like a future with storytelling involved somewhere. And so it feels nice to have like this project that I worked on that means a lot. But in terms of concrete plans, I don’t think I have specific ones. But I think that’s also something I kind of learned to accept while making the film. Because kind of looking back, there were always points where I was like really unsure about things or like hoped for better in the future, I guess.
But now when I look back on it, I have pretty fond memories of those times. So kind of seeing the discrepancy between my memory of it now versus like how I felt at the time, is like a little reassuring. That like even though in the past I felt really uncertain, now I can look back at it fondly, that kind of thing.
And I think that’s helped me be able to be less apprehensive about moving forward. Because I guess these are all just moments. And I’m sure this will just become another memory once I’m looking back kind of thing.